cool

except not. but kind of i guess.
i've been busy with my first semester of college. it started out good, but things went downhill when i got sick. it's just hard to catch up, you know? i was thinking of taking photography throughout my time at tunxis, but it's just so much work.

i'm starting to have an idea of what i want to do with my life. but i am afraid of what other people might think. it's not something that most people would think about doing. i joke around with wanting to be a tour guide in like, Africa or some other place exotic and exciting, when really i have no idea what i'll do with my life. what i've been thinking of doing as a career is pretty...well, macabre would be a word to describe it.

i feel really out of place where i am these days. home, well, people say that "home is where the heart is". i love my family, i just can't handle alot of things we go through sometimes. it gets stressful, for everyone. but we're still there for eachother. school i don't really have new friends. i talk to people, but it's mostly small talk. i'd like to make friends to hang out with, but i'm not sure that will happen.

i feel kind of silly when i say this, but i love youtube. i connect with people there, though i don't make my own videoes. but i talk to some people, and i'd love to meet them one day; hang out and feel in place. youtube live is tonight and i can't wait =]
i want to find people here that like what i like and can connect with me. i think i'd be much happier if i could find that.