My mind loves to wander about. Normally it'll be something silly and inappropriate, becaust mostly my mind is always in the gutter. But today, and some other bad days, I tend to think about lame things. It really sucked because i was hanging out with my friends that i don't really get to see too often. I really would like for my mind not to wander around my memories when I'm actually trying to be productive and happy. But today, I ended up thinking about my family all day. I couldn't help but to think about the things I've seen and heard at my old house. These are things that really affected me, and too many times throughout the day I wanted to just sit and cry. But that would be really strange if I were to just do that in the middle of lunch or the Puppy Center. When I think about it , I just feel like screaming, screaming like I would when the things actually happened.
I just hope that these memories will not stay with me forever, I hope I never have to tell anyone about it because I don't want them to feel bad.
I love my family and my friends, I just wish these memories would leave me, I see now, why I decided to suppress my memories from my early life...something must've happened that I never wanted to think about agian. blah....I'll keep myself busy, to try not to think too much.
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We would have been super understanding if you cried at the puppy center, or anywhere for that matter.
We're always there for you Jaimes, give us a little credit. We would be understanding if you needed to cry or to talk or just needed to sit in silence. We love you.
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